Light in the Well

Hi Blog. Long time no see. Sorry about that.

The lord said, "Write" and I promptly replied "..."

But hopefully I'll start being obedient now.

So, I've been sick for a week now and I've been wondering why. I've been eating more healthy foods and exercising more and taking vitamins, so why? Especially when: I'm not on insurance, have no money, and missed two days of work.

I'm not sure of the answer, but I have some theories now that I'm in it.

Last Saturday, some people in my life had urged me to stop doing things in my strength and instead rely on God's and to stop working for His approval when He's already given it to you. Basically, stop being Martha and sit at the foot of the lord like Mary did.

I'm embarrassed to say that I didn't know what that even meant or how to do it.

Well, on Monday I got sick. And let me just say, it's hard to rely on your own strength when you have none. And it's hard to worship the Lord without a voice, without strength to dance or play guitar or even hold a pen for extended periods of time.

I still don't really know what all of this means and I even hesitate to publish this without answers, but I feel like I should anyway for some reason.

I guess this post is more of a prayer. lord, please show me how to life my life for You and how to rely on you for everything and just to simply sit at your feet. Rabbi, teach me what this means. Guide me along and hold my hand, because I need Your help to walk.